The Pleasure-Pain of Divine Love

There were a few times where I went out of my body and contacted the higher realms.

During one occasion which I recall, the descent back into matter was terribly painful for me. As an unbottled essence, I was able to travel down through the sephiroth and experience awareness as a spark of light, travelling downwards into the increasing complication of matter. Whilst it was painful, the process was also beautiful, simultaneously pleasurable and…necessary! Why? This was part of the expression of Divine Love.

I hadn’t previously known that one could experience such intense pleasure and pain at the same time!

As a very raw and confronting example, consider a young virgin on her wedding night, lying with her beloved, though properly prepared and with communication & patience, there could be the presence of both pleasure and pain.—And yet she is willing…in fact, wanting to proceed, in order to BE the full expression of love.

Samael Aun Weor described it as “the atoms of the father that are in pain”. And as my friend, Rachana, has commented amongst spiritual friends, the Dhammapada says, “all form trembles.”

We each may have different ways to describe this, but when you experience it in your Being, you KNOW it in your core.

And when you truly understand this, you do not reject your incarnation but you embrace it in all its aspects.

For love to exist at all, it requires reciprocity. Unrequited love always dies. Without expression & reciprocation love is not love, therefore the pain, therefore the division of the unity, therefore the return and completion.